Complete Blur

I am totally confused and angry right now. I have been crying for days and couldn't work out why it had happened. I just don't know where to start and how I am going to cope with this horrendous trials. I just hope that one day all my question will be answered. Right now, I can't think of anything else but felt sorry for my younger sisters. I just wish I knew back then and could have done anything about it. I felt helpless and confused.